HELLO!

How I wish I could be a zookeeper.

2011-08-17T02:34:00.001+08:00

I can't wait till school starts. Not because I love school - EWWWWW. But more of because it feels like it's gonna be a fresh start, you know? New people, new things to study, new environment, new everything. I've to start planning what I wear to school which sucks. I miss wearing a uniform :'(

Anyhoo, once I finalise my timetable, I'm gonna start my horse riding lessons, and I'm going to finish my driving lessons. Hopefully I'll be done ASAP. With driving I mean. Even if I don't have a car to drive. It's just such a chore to keep going back to take lessons. I can't wait to start my practical!!! It sounds like a bunch of fun.

And I really REALLY have to start exercising again. Not only cause I'm getting flabby and thus starting to look fat, I have to get healthy. It sounds like I'm lying, but the biggest thing that's annoying me now is that I get tired after climbing a small flight of stairs. It's disgusting! This unhealthiness is UNACCEPTABLE. Thus I will be disgusted with myself until the day I actually drag my ass off whatever it is sitting on and go and exercise.

Choochoo~

2011-08-11T01:37:00.003+08:00

You know, I wonder if blogspot will just delete my blog if I don't post for like, years. Haha don't want to try that. I've got too many memories here, bad and good. :) It's weird why people post on blogs. It's like a personal diary, that EVERYBODY can read. Kinda defeats the purpose of a diary doesn't it?

Anyhooo, thought I'd post a little more here, since I'm so free and everything. And I'd like to think that people enjoy reading my posts, as much as I enjoy reading my friends', as little as there are. Hehe well, I AM only interested in a few of my friends' lives. I know that makes me sound like a really horrible person, and yes I am. I really don't care about the rest of you. I mean, I do care, but I won't actually put in an effort to stay really close with you? Wow that sounds REALLY bad! D: But it's true! I mean, I'm sure some of you feel the same way? Right? How many of your friends in your phone contacts/facebook/twitter/friendster(WTH?!) do you ACTUALLY interact with on a regular basis? Only the ones you really care about!!! I bet most of you actually have friends that are not really your friends, but are just your 'friends' so that you can STALK THEM. EXPOSEDDDDDDD HOHOHO

Okay I'll admit I have tons of people on my fcbk that I seriously don't know. I know who that person is, but I have no idea what kind of person he/she is. As good as a stranger, I just know their name. And with my BRILLIANT ELEPHANT memory, I swear if I didn't see them on fcbk, I would have just lived on without remembering them at all. They'll just be a blurry face without a name in my mind. I'd identify people with blurry face #1, blurry face #2, etc etc.

Okay nonsense aside, I'm currently enjoying my one month of holiday before school starts again. Got driving theory lessons tmr, and I'm gonna take all 4 at one shot so I don't have to go back so often. Thinking if I should take my evaluations next week, but I'll think about that later. Really really dreading the start of school. After 9 months of non-schooling, I seriously don't know how I'll adjust back to doing HOMEWORK and meeting DEADLINES and WRITING NOTES. Eulch the thought of it disgusts me.

Time for a snack. And a new font. :)

BOO

2011-05-25T14:50:00.002+08:00

Oh chickadee poooooo my stupid mozilla just crashed and everything except the TITLE disappeared. The least important thing stays. Wonderful.

I'm not typing it again, so live without knowing what I typed previously!!!

EDIT: I ACTUALLY FOUND WHAT I HAD PREVIOUSLY TYPED. SO HERE IT IS. BE SATISFIED, LOYAL READERS!!!

Well hello there,

:)

Been totally neglecting this place. Kakakaka not cause I'm extremely busy or anything. I do work 6 days a week, and by the time I get home after work everyday I just want to sit on the couch and watch whatever's on tv. I'm even lazier than when I went to school. This is not doing me any good, all this sitting ALL DAY. Not like I'm eating less due to my decrease in physical activity.

Feels weird blogging again after so long.

Going to Aussie in about a week, so excited to get out of this hot Singapore weather and

2011-03-03T23:02:00.001+08:00

I'M FREAKING OUTTTTTTTT.

Well, almost.

What colour?

2011-02-02T00:53:00.002+08:00

Ouch my shoulder aches, I don't know why. It's more of my shoulder blade.

Granma is getting better, much better than the past few days, so that's awesome! Not in time for CNY though, but it doesn't matter, as long as she gets better :)

Got pretty depressed trying to match my clothes just now to make outfits, so frustrating. Sigh. I want to paint my nails, but I'm waiting for my sis to pick a colour, since she always says my nails don't match my outfit. :/ I shall try to wear some bright colours on the first day. Haha just to make my mama happy. And there's always the traditional photo taking, so I've to wear something nice, so that I'll rmb it forever. Hahaha!

CNY is so exciting. Not forgetting all the food, especially mumsy's godly pineapple tarts. I've never eaten any pineapple tarts that taste better than hers. ^^

Happy Birthday Sis! (YTD)

2011-01-31T01:40:00.003+08:00

I was at marina square.

My brother, clumsy as he is, stepped on some guy's sandal.

He said sorry.

Then the most bizarre thing happened.

That man just turned at stared at him, like he wanted to punch him! I'm serious. Even when I walked past with my bro, he just stared at us. So I couldn't resist saying "OH-KAYYY...." while walking away. Then he actually said CBKNN. Honestly. And he was holding his son's hand.

The things I could have said to him.

He should be in a movie.

Pokemon and Anger

2011-01-24T01:11:00.003+08:00

I woke up early to go jog with my sis and dad today. Like, at 8. :<

"HYPNOSIS!" *waves hands magically like drowzee does*

Yes, I did that.

Recently I realise I've started doing weird things in public. Like screaming, and shouting, and doing weird actions. I tend to get stares and looks from strangers, whom I stare back at. But I guess I'm still very much a coward, only daring to make murderous actions and say murderous things only when I'm certain they won't see, or when they're out of earshot. Still, it wouldn't be very nice to do it in front of people. They'll just think I'm mad or something, and they get offended when I really was just fooling around.

Going to the Japan fair at NEX tmr. It's the new shopping centre at serangoon. Mariah is working there, so me and shaz are gonna visit her, since we're both very much unemployed. Nothing to be proud of I know, especially since shaz has actually already had about 2 jobs, while I sum up at ZERO. Haha sometimes I really feel like giving in to the odds, and just getting a normal office job like everyone else. But I always rmb my sis asking me, how much do you want it? And I guess the phrase "challenge accepted!" just goes off in my head. Cause I know I want it, very much. I know what I want, and I guess I have to start working for it, in order for other people to believe that I really want it too. Ah this kinda sucks.

In addition to that, I've been very irritable lately. I have no idea if it's due to my period, or if I'm just seriously losing my mind. I get really really angry, to the point I feel like crying, and pointing a finger and shouting at whoever pissed me off. But all it takes is just a little thing, like a waterlogged message, and I'll start laughing, and then I'll be fine. The anger just disappears. :/

Planned some stuff for Japan just now. If I do manage to go, it's gonna be totally awesome. Like really! Really really really. We're gonna go trekking for 6 DAYSSSSS. Maybe see some snow? PLEASE? I don't even have to see it fall from the sky, I just want to see SNOW. We're gonna go to the chaku chaku umanko horse festival. I'm serious, it's a festival specially to thank the HORSES. Kyaaaa awesomestest festival ever! Hehe and over a 100 horses will parade, wearing bright and cute uhh... costumes? Wait I have no idea what to call those. Ornaments/decorations??? Oh darn, this is gonna haunt me for the rest of the night. And MAYBE we'll get to sit the tama densha, a train dedicated to tama-chan, a cat station master at a station called Kishi, in Osaka! Google it, he's quite famous ^^

OKAY this post is getting a little long. Ain't got much to say anymore anyway! Just was feeling kinda bored and I wanted to rant. :)

Back to being aimless

2011-01-17T02:01:00.002+08:00

Just finished Durarara! Awesome anime I must say, I really really want another season, but I guess that's not up to me to decide.

Now I just have to wait for the zoo to reply me, for me to get busy. Sometimes I ask myself if volunteering was a good idea. I mean, I wouldn't be earning any money, and I would still be spending money! I guess other people may see it as a waste of time, no matter how cool being a zoo keeper is. But still, I can't help feeling that people may doubt my choice. Heck, sometimes even I doubt my choice. Maybe I should just get any job? Whatever job that comes my way. But, that defeats the purpose right? I've been studying for the past 12 years of my life, studying stuff that I didn't have much of an interest in. And I didn't have a choice. Now I finally have a choice, and it turns out I'm going by the less desirable path. Still, I know what I like, and I know I won't regret, even if I end up only volunteering and not getting a job there. Cause I'll be fufilling a childhood ambition. :>

So dear Zoo, PLEASE REPLY ME ASAPPPPPP. :(

Run Away

2011-01-12T14:50:00.001+08:00

I wish Nepal was my backyard. I wish I had a magical portal to Nepal. The mountains I mean. That way, whenever I need somewhere to chill or to relax, or to get away from everything, I'd be able to.

I want to go so bad.

2011-01-10T02:57:00.002+08:00

“For every minute you are angry you lose sixty seconds of happiness.”
-Ralph Waldo Emerson

Yep, I was angry for at least an hour today. Cause once again I went to town and I didn't shop much, even though I found stuff that I like. Somehow I can't buy stuff properly, probably because everyone else will just say it's not worth the money, and they'll be unhappy with whatever I buy, like I'm wasting money. AND my sis pointed out today that my wadrobe is, to be honest, indeed very limited and small. She says I'm just rotating outfits. Woopee, glad someone else realises it as well. :/

I was angry also cause some bangla gave me wrong instructions at the money changer when I was already annoyed. Seriously, I'm not against them or anything, but the employers should make a point to get them to learn english at least before they hire them. Ah but now that I think about it, mostly foreigners go to the money remittance place, so it makes sense to hire him. Hmm. Okay, I've just contradicted myself.

Anyway, going to town again tmr for dinner, hopefully I'll get some stuff. Maybe I should just spend mindlessly again! At least I'll be happy, and I'll get the clothes I need for new year. But I want new stuff, like stuff of a different style. I dont know, types of clothing that I don't already have. But if I buy those, I have to buy other stuff to wear with them and make an outfit, then all I get is just another outfit to rotate with! HAHA okay I'm spouting nonsense.

I want new heels! >:(

Trying to get employed sucks.

2011-01-07T00:34:00.002+08:00

Super crappy. Why doesn't anyone ever reply me? Even a simple "We have found someone else, and we will not be hiring you" email would be nice. At least I'll know to stop waiting right? It's like basic courtesy isn't it?? Damn. Makes me feel like just taking up some lame old job, just cause I WANT to get a job, not cause I like the job. But I want to do something fun! I'm going to be there for quite awhile, and it probably is gonna require me to wake up early all the time. Might as well wake up for something I enjoy right? Stupid people. REPLY MEEEEEEEE >:(

Paranoid much.

2011-01-06T00:45:00.002+08:00

Right, so I'm back again. Turns out, I wasn't abandoned. They were just being very quiet in the study room. :/ My sis is upset cause one of her terappins isn't doing very well, seems to have an eye infection of some sorts. Hopefully some antibiotics from the pet shop will help it recover. Otherwise, it's a trip to the vet for it.

Yep, the days leading to the end of 2010 was honestly quite amazing. So many things happened. Both good and bad stuff. I guess I would say I ended 2010 on a satisfactory note. Managed to settle some stuff, and I got to stay at a hotel for the first time with trashgang. Stayed over at trisha's for New Year's, together with wei and huang jj. Heh awesome way to spend the first day of new years. >:)

Anyhoooo. Last year's been a great year, one of the best. Not really the best, but one that I've definitely grown a lot in, thanks to the people around me, and thanks to everything I went through. Hopefully 2011 would be even better, but I guess I'm the only one who can ensure that.

It's my BIRTHDAY!!

2011-01-05T22:28:00.002+08:00

NO IT'S NOT. I was just kidding.

It is my mum's birthday tmr though! So exciting, I really like the gift we made her. We made a scrapbook for her, full of ugly photos from the past and not-so-ugly photos of the present, or at least recent past? GAH anyha, it's nice to look back at old photos, see all the silly stuff we've done. See how cute my brother was!

Shit I think I've just been abandoned. I'll post next time, I DON'T WANT TO BE ALONEEEEEE.

Merry Christmas :)

2010-12-25T15:49:00.002+08:00

It's christmas! My second favourite holiday of the year, with the first being my birthday. Heh it's always during the school holidays, so I count it as a holiday anyway.

Still managed to continue with all the gift exchanges at home. Got my bro a book, made my sis some lame card, got my dad a car model, a Jaguar nonetheless. Made my mum a HUGE string of flowers. Haha we got a combined present from my parents, a little less than satisfactory I must say, but oh well. Better then nothing :) made my granma a photo frame with all of us in it, and bought my maid the book she wanted! It was nice to see everyone happy with their presents, though I'm sure some expected a little more? Haha I've never really gotten what I WANTED for a present I realise. It's always something I like, but never something I honestly wanted.

ANYHOOOO, 2 birthday's coming up, and I seriously need to put in loads of planning for those. It's gonna be a really busy 2 months. Hopefully I'd be able to pull them off!

Going to my other granma's house for a christmas dinner, have to find something to wear. Not to mention I have to pack for monday. AND I have yet to start on making the christmas presents, shit.

BBQ all the way!!

2010-12-21T01:35:00.002+08:00

I totally should be sleeping now, but i keep thinking about stuff. Like how I'm suppose to get a job, how I'm suppose to decide what I want to do After I get my results, good or bad. This sucks. I'm going to stop thinking and enjoy this chalet.

I went swimming today, which is good for me. Going blaring tmr, hopefully we'll blade to the stables and I'll get to see horses. :)

Holiday!

2010-12-19T00:52:00.003+08:00

Wow it's been so long since I posted. Kinda forgot. And I got too used to lazing around that it's getting hard to do lots of stuff. Haha even getting up to pour myself a cup of water is too tiring. I'm THAT lazy.

Chalet tmr! Till tuesday. Hopefully it'll get rid of some of the laziness. And hopefully it'll get me moving. But before that, I've to tidy up my table. Yes, I know I previously stated that I wanted to finish clearing my table. Which I have! I just haven't put everything away neatly yet. Haha it's just a huge pile of mess. I've to tidy it up before tmr, so that I can leave this house in peace.

And I have to remember to finish my resume by tmr so I can use it.

AHHH so many things to do :(

Moppity Mope

2010-12-11T01:46:00.002+08:00

Just re-started watching Major, I really miss this show! All the baseball thingys, though I doubt I'd ever get to play in a real game, still I'd like to know what it's all about!

Agenda for tmr:
-Pack my table. I must FINISH this time. :/
-Bake some chocolate cupcakes? Mmmm
-Try to squeeze in a jog? If not I'll just, run around the house or something.

I stuffed myself with food today at Sushi Tei. Seriously, I just ordered what I felt like eating without really thinking whether I could finish it. Just the thought of the taste of that particular dish in my mouth was all I needed to point and order. HAHA love having lunch with my mum :) But alas, it was too much, and I failed to finish that last remaining piece of saba. Haha at least I finished everything else! Then I went to shit.

OH forgot to mention about helping Huang JJ with his sister's wedding video. Super awkward at first, but it was okay I guess :)

The Call - Regina Spektor

2010-12-10T00:38:00.000+08:00

It started out as a feeling
Which then grew into a hope
Which then turned into a quiet thought
Which then turned into a quiet word

And then that word grew louder and louder
'Til it was a battle cry

I'll come back
When you call me
No need to say goodbye

Just because every thing's changing
Doesn't mean it's never been this way before
All you can do is try to know
Who your friends are as you head off to the war

Pick a star on the dark horizon
And follow the light
You'll come back
When it's over
No need to say goodbye

You'll come back
When it's over
No need to say goodbye

Now, we're back to the beginning
It's just a feeling and no one knows yet
But just because they can't feel it too
Doesn't mean that you have to forget

Let your memories grow stronger and stronger
'Til they're before your eyes

You'll come back
When they call you
No need to say goodbye

You'll come back
When they call you
No need to say goodbye

Sparkly pearly whites :)

2010-12-07T23:30:00.002+08:00

Went to the dentist today! Was almost late, but made it just in time. ZG went first, filled his 3 cavities which took forever. Then was me, and I had one cavity which needed filling but there wasn't enough time (thanks to ZG), so SL went next. So I had to go back at 3.30 to finish my teeth. Ate lunch before that, and went back. I was so full that I was sleepy throughout the filling. I wanted to doze off, especially since the chair is like a bed, you're lying down and all.

Then we went to get some uhhh... stuff.

YEP then we went to find clothes for my sis. She had a dinner with her friends, and she was specially requested to wear something nice and formal. She has NOTHING in her cupboard. Tsk tsk terrible. Anyway, bought a dress for her. Not really a dress but it's worn like a dress. Ahh doesn't matter. She wore my black pumps and off she went. Heh so fun finding clothes for people! But I got no idea what I'm doing. Hurhur oh well. Still fun :) Didn't buy anything for myself though, but I'm going back there this friday with my mum, so I'll get a chance then I guess! Shall go to all the shops my sis won't, since she won't be there. Then when she's there we'll go to those she wants to go too!

Okay I think that's all. I got a jigsaw puzzle that needs completing, so off I go! Have to finish it as early as I can, so that I can sleep early and wake up early to go jogging tmr morning. I'm getting disgustingly fat.

On a side note, I love the scones they sell at Popeyes! So soft and fluffy :)

On a side note,

2010-12-06T00:03:00.000+08:00

I'm really looking forward to christmas. :)

Miserable.

2010-12-05T17:45:00.004+08:00

Why hasn't my email gotten a replyyyy. Maybe cause it's the weekend, and the office isn't open. I can't wait, I hope it's good news. But seriously I doubt it. :( Oh well, there's always the zoo!

I think I should go for a run later. Or maybe some blading? Hmm. Running's so boring. :/

Surreal

2010-11-28T22:11:00.002+08:00

sur·re·al [suh-ree-uhl]
–adjective

1. of, pertaining to, or characteristic of surrealism; surrealistic.
2. having the disorienting, hallucinatory quality of a dream; unreal; fantastic

Wasn't so fantastic in my case.

IT Fair

2010-11-26T00:31:00.001+08:00

It fair tmr! Haha maybe I'll get myself something nice :)

I studied for the whole day today, proud of myself ^^ HAHA

Discomfort.

2010-11-24T09:35:00.002+08:00

I woke up at 8 today, cause I had a blocked nose and I couldn't go back to sleep. At least I managed to blow it all out. Haha I woke up even before my alarm rang! I didn't intend to wake up so early. Anyway, it's nice to just sit down and use my com and relax, without having to worry what's the time or anything.

I'm not going to study today haha! Self'-declared rest day. Tmr and Friday, I'll study then. Not forgetting Sunday! Have to do well for paper 1, get as much marks as I can. :)

I was wondering if I should go to the IT fair tmr, get some stuff. Still thinking if I should get an iTouch. I want oneeeeeeee haha and maybe at the IT fair it'll be sold at a cheaper price? Don't know. But it's gonna be so crowded, and I don't know who's gonna go with me. :( Shall continue thinking about it, I've got the whole day anyway. Going to bring my brother out, and just chill. Loiter. Whatever it's called. Haha maybe go to the arcade. Goodness I'm so childish haha

Back to my games! I was so bored last night I was playing a game called IT Girl. Virtual shopping with virtual money is the best HAHA

Porridge.

2010-11-23T12:08:00.002+08:00

I'm eating plain teochew porridge for lunch. This is kind of... Sad. Maybe I should like, pour my chicken essence into it or something. 2-in-1. HAHA I forgot to drink my chicken essence ytd! Maybe that's why I was tired at night. Don't know. Hope econs doesn't kill me. I've been reading essays since I woke up and I don't think I can read anymore. I will just get confused. Shall just go in and whack. :/

Hot weather stuffy house :(

2010-11-22T00:53:00.001+08:00

Ahh I hate it when all the windows and the doors are closed. The house becomes an oven. >:( And to make things worse, I'm really hungry. Soup is definitely not enough for dinner. Going to bed soon, hopefully tmr's chem will be fine for me.

Well that was quick.

2010-11-20T18:35:00.002+08:00

Remember my previous post about my new -found resolve?

Well, it's gone. Kapoosh. Ping. Nil. Zilch. Got sucked through a black hole. Non-existent.

EXTINCT.

Damn.

Swallowing hurts.

2010-11-20T13:47:00.002+08:00

Uh oh, I feel a sorethroat coming along. Must be due to all the chicken essence I've been drinking before every paper. Haha but I really don't want to risk feeling drowsy during the paper. And since the paper's are all in the afternoon and I wake up early to do some last minute studying, there's a high possibility that I'd be drowsy during the paper. Not to mention that an extremely quiet, air-conditioned room is very VERY sleep-inducing. It's like naptime in kindergarden, minus the napping. :(

I should stop sharing food and drinks, lest I pass this to someone else.

I am quite amazed at this new-found resolve to study hard for econs. It's quite exciting to do essays haha!

2010-11-20T11:46:00.001+08:00

My mum is gonna take leave on 24th, and I can't believe how excited I was at the sound of the 24th - which is after the 23rd. HA

I forsee a whole lot of struggling to study hard for physics paper 1. Gosh. :/

Comfort Food.

2010-11-19T22:51:00.002+08:00

I'm hungry.

I shall go toast the leftover garlic bread from pizza hut and gobble it down, I don't care if I get a tummy ache ahahaha. I like bread and tea, it's kinda comfy. Warm and comfy. If I could I would hug it, just like I hug my sheep to sleep. Though I tend to end up throwing it aside in my sleep. But I always look for it when I wake up, and I'll hug it again. It smells so nice. I love stuff that smell like me, they smell so comfy.

2010-11-19T11:30:00.001+08:00

Shut up, please.

WHY

2010-11-18T20:41:00.001+08:00

I never thought I'd feel like this. Not so soon. But...

WHY DOES IT FEEL LIKE A LEVELS ARE OVER?!

2010-11-18T10:45:00.001+08:00

Dear Digimon Episodes,

I really hope you have english subtitles, and that you are in Japanese.

If not, I will just die.

Tummy Ache

2010-11-17T23:35:00.001+08:00

I have a tummy ache again. It's killing meeeeeeeee :(

Revamp

2010-11-17T12:47:00.000+08:00

I can't wait to repaint my room. I love painting. :)

Blurb

2010-11-16T15:53:00.004+08:00

I asked my brother if I could choose the character he's using for his game. He said okay, very reluctantly I must add.

So after looking through them, I chose this one:

Koi
Abilities: Splash
Traits: Slow

HA end up he couldn't attack ANY of the bad guys, and he had to make a mad dash through the level to keep from getting attacked. I encouraged him of course, by continuously screaming RUN RUN ZI GUANG THEY'RE GONNA CATCH YOU RUN! Hahaha

I realise, why are fish always the useless characters? Look at Magikarp, the most useless pokemon ever. Haha until it evolves into gyrados that is, then it becomes kinda powerful. If I ever made a game, I'd make the fish the ultimate most powerful character that you can get. Hoho~

Tsk,

2010-11-15T15:48:00.001+08:00

Where is all this irritation coming from. I feel so restless.

I'm going to take a bath damn it.

Totoro

2010-11-15T02:01:00.002+08:00

Yay I managed to finish the origami! HOHO the paper isn't quite the right size, but it'll do I guess. Nyaaaaa so happy now haha I shall fold another one.

Too bad everyone's asleep, I've got no one to show it to :(

Late Night Snack.

2010-11-14T22:50:00.002+08:00

Okay, I know it's bad to be eating at this hour. But it's not my fault. I didn't decide to eat and 5.30. Who eats dinner at 5.30! It's so early! And it wasn't even a very filling meal. :/

All in all, Happiness comes before Looks. :)

Oh,

2010-11-14T15:09:00.000+08:00

I'm in love with the weather.

2010-11-14T14:22:00.001+08:00

I've worn the same shirt for about 2 days.

Staying at home and studying makes me soooo lazy. :/

Curry!

2010-11-13T15:59:00.003+08:00

I am so excited about having curry tonight!

I went to help my mum cook the curry just now, it made me even more excited haha! I'm in such a good mood that when some kid was making some noise after coming out of the lift I just shouted shut up at the door. HA I don't even know who it was, whether it was a kid or an adult or a boy or a girl. Or even if that person was on the 6th floor at all. But that person did shut up.

WOOO can't wait can't wait for my CHICKEN CURRYYYYYYY

Flick Flick

2010-11-13T13:26:00.002+08:00

I seriously need to fix my computer screen. The flickering's gotten really bad. It flickers continuously, and the bottom part of my screen is all weird. I can't even see my toolbar properly! And this computer is still so new. Pfft, my tablet was so much more hardy. It's still alive! Hopefully won't die in my brother's hands.

Note to self: Get daddy to bring me to fix it.

Or he'll just read it here. :)

Back to studyinggggg

2010-11-12T18:26:00.001+08:00

"trigger pop-up messages saying that Bieber had been killed in a car accident; his Last.fm photograph being changed to pornographic images; various rumors circulated, from rumors that Bieber had died, joined a cult, or even that his mother was offered $50,000 to pose topless in Playboy magazine—none of which were true."

Wow, maybe we should give Justin Bieber a break!

Doesn't make his songs any less crappy though.

Hoki

2010-11-12T14:53:00.001+08:00

When I was walking home I saw 3 boys. They all had hockey sticks hanging from their bags. Then I realised how much I miss hoki trainings. :(

Time For Change.

2010-11-11T14:58:00.000+08:00

Chicken, anyone? :)

Ouch.

2010-11-10T18:44:00.001+08:00

DAMN YOU, TUMMY ACHE! >:[

BIG FAT A

2010-11-09T01:49:00.000+08:00

Oh,

You're here.

2

2010-11-07T00:56:00.003+08:00

Hello worldly pleasures.

I am dumping you for my AMAZING books and practice papers and notes.

See you soon.

2010-11-04T13:26:00.001+08:00

Damn all these family lunches, they're making me fat.

2010-11-03T22:12:00.001+08:00

Hello,

Tell me your story.

Weird

2010-11-03T16:39:00.001+08:00

I''m drinking Redbull in an attempt to stay awake to study.

End up, I felt sleepier and I took a short nap on the dining table.

Talk about plan backfire.

Can't wait can't wait!

27

2010-11-02T13:42:00.003+08:00

Yes, I shall focus on 27 instead. 29 November, approximately 3.30pm (half an hour to collect papers), and I will run to the school railings and SCREAAAAAAAAM. Hahahahaha I'm laughing to myself just thinking about it.

Yes, 27 days. My motivation to study really hard! That's just 27 more days of suffering, and I'll be done with all this nonsense. No use complaining about why we have to study, just study. That's what the Singapore education is anyway, so JUST STUDY. Hah like a mindless zombie.

Except mindless zombies can't really study, cause they're mindless. Hmm.

17.

2010-10-21T22:33:00.002+08:00

AHHHHHH not going to school has totally made me lose track of time, made me forget that A's are just a mere 17 DAYS AWAY. I kind of had a small mini panic when I found out that there were 18 days left yesterday. Darn I really need to study harddddd.

No more excuses! It's just 17 days, or one month to be exact, but these 17 days will be the most crucial. I think. Darn it, for me everyday will be crucial. Every minute. No more tumblr, no more fcbk; Seriously I don't know why I started twitter >:[. No more flood it, no more nonsense. Just hotmail.

I just need to constantly remind myself, stress myself, scare myself.

It's just a month of suffering, I get 8 months or reward. Not to mention Japan, HOPEFULLY a job at the stables, and just the freedom to do whatever I want! Good deal good deal.

Come on, just a little more. Not gonna flush my ~~two~~ twelve years down the toilet bowl.

I need Self-control.

2010-10-11T17:48:00.001+08:00

HEY,

Get off that ass and MOVE IT.

It's time to use your brain.

It's time to sacrifice.

2010-10-07T23:40:00.001+08:00

How much can a person take, before they decide to say,

"I've had enough."

?

2010-10-06T00:07:00.001+08:00

Dream

a succession of images, thoughts, or emotions passing through the mind during sleep.
the sleeping state in which this occurs.
an object seen in a dream.
an involuntary vision occurring to a person when awake.
a vision voluntarily indulged in while awake; daydream; reverie.
an aspiration; goal; aim
a wild or vain fancy.
something of an unreal beauty, charm, or excellence.

I think a dream is a wonderful, amazing thing. You can dream when you're awake OR asleep, you can dream about people, dream about thoughts, dream about events. You can use it to describe someone, even to describe your life.

Don't really know what the point of this is suppose to be, but I know my dream. I guess it could be called a dream. Actually I've got 2 dreams, one bigger than the other.

My biggest dream, I thought it had come true. But it was a facade, and it just disappeared from my grasp, and now it lingers, just out of my reach, but no matter what I do, it doesn't come any closer.

My other dream, well that'll be my secret. My new-found secret that no one knows. :) It's nice to have a secret all to myself. I get to decide who knows about it and who doesn't. And those that know can count themselves special.

Would it be greedy for me, to want both dreams to come true?

A little more than a month

2010-10-01T00:49:00.002+08:00

One more month or so to A's.

Just kill me now. >:(

Rain Rain Rain

2010-09-25T15:13:00.002+08:00

It's been raining a lot lately huh! I don't know if it's good. Keeps the weather cooling, but it ruins the fun I have when I'm out. Though it created some very fun moments, though I paid for it after. HAHA still. :)

HEHE Prelims are over, finally. HA you must be thinking, there's still A's to come. True, and I am truly glad that its only Prelims that are over, not A's. If what I just did was my A's, I can kiss my future goodbye HAHA it's sooooo bad. At least now I know, I shouldn't be having such feelings before my A's. If I repeat this, I know how everything's gonna turn out.

Sigh, but let's just not study so hard this weekend, sort out my 'life'. Haha I've got to do some stuff I've been putting off, like packing my table, buying my stuff from popular, writing birthday cards, posting, just some 'me' time. To do what I want. Without having to study. :) Not forgetting exercise! I've really gotten fatter, all thanks to this studying all the time. The only breaks I get are the 15-30 min hoki hittings that I do during the breaks in between my studying. I should start jogging.

My sis said maybe I should do 1000 situps everyday. Seems like a lot, but if you actually count it's not bad at all. Let's count. Say, you sleep 8 hours. An hour for each meal would take away about 3 hours? An hour TOTAL for all the time you spend in the toilet, considering that you do not have constipation or something. You've got 12 hours left. That's about 84 sit-ups PER HOUR. You can at least do 30 for your napfa, which is what, a minute? I can't rmb. But yea, you just have to do one or 2 every minute, and you'd have done 1000 situps for the day. HAHA quite interesting when you think about it huh! Of course, if you only do one per minute, I don't think it'll have much use HAHA. Maybe in sets, you get really long breaks in between! HAHA

Eh I have no idea why but I suddenly thought of weighing myself.

Heh no weight gain. :) Wonder where all this fat is coming from, since I'm not gaining any weight. Don't tell me I had so much muscle before?? HAHA anyway, since it can become fat, I can make it go back to being muscle! I SHALLLLL ok I shall go jogging later. After I get my fat ass off the chair and start clearing my table. SIGH I hate clearing the table. If only it's as easy as sorting the documents on the computer. Just click what you want to sort it by, and it's done with a simple click of the mouse.

I'm a Rhinestone cowboy!

2010-09-18T21:54:00.002+08:00

Today was funnnn I haven't had so much fun in AGES. Blame A levels. >:(

Went to my mama's company's family day carnival today. I was suppose to only eat dinner, which was buffet style. But I got there and the games stalls weren't closed yet, so...

HEHE went straight to the rodeo/bull machine thing. It looked really embarassing though. Haha yep. Some indians ~~tried to~~ cut my queue. At first they put the boy on the machine, so I thought oh well, since it's a little boy... Then they took a photo, took the boy down, and the stupid man went on the machine for another try! CANT THEY SEE THAT I WAS QUEUEING??! Then some other woman was like, Oh I want to try I want to try. Then she wanted to just walk past the queue and "have a try". I couldn't take it, so I just said "Excuse me, I think you have to queue." THEN she realised she was being annoying and said sorry and went to the back. Ended up, they didn't wait for their turn after all and left. Stoooopid people.

ANYWAY, the rodeo was really fun. Managed to stay on for over 50 seconds, and the record was a minute and 13 seconds. Oh well, haha I think the person was going easy on me though, cause I was a girl. :/ Just went round in circles.

Went to play the ice hockey thing. Just have to shoot the puck in between the cardboard guy's legs. I rocked at itttt HAHA just the first few times though. The next few times, I think I thought too much, so I kept going out. :( I miss hokiiiii

Played some basketball game, some baseball game, switched our tokens for 2 big packs of twisties, one big pack of mamee, and a pack of rice crackers with seaweed. YAY snacks for a week :) Gonna bring it to the library and piss the librarian off HAHA

Then after the games it was dinnertime! :D Took a plate of food and ATE IT ALLLLLL hahahah the oatmeal prawns were reaaaaally good. I love oatmeal prawns. Too bad there was only sweet and sour fish, not pork. :( At least there was rice!

It was nice to have fun again, after so long of thinking about studying all the time.

Pretty foxes

2010-09-16T01:07:00.001+08:00

I should be sleeeeeping now.

Somehow my house is evil. Once I step in, I lose ALL motivation to study. It's hard. Maybe I should come home later. Haha!

Cue: Prelims

2010-09-15T00:45:00.002+08:00

Now starts the mad rush to cram as much as I can into my brain before my papers. :(

Sigh.

Dive!

2010-09-13T01:51:00.002+08:00

Studied at Tradehub 21 today. That place is kinda cool. Nice place to walk when I'm taking my breaks. It's quiet, and there aren't many people there. Not like the normal bustling places that I go to study, and it's nice.

Watched Dive! on okto just now. Awesome show. :) With all the diving, and aww the characters were so cute. Not in their looks, but more of their characters and actions. Finally got the song, too.

Believe it or not, I actually miss playing the piano. D: I'm quite surprised I miss it. Honestly surprised. I'll play it again, after A's. :) I'll have all the time to do whatever I want anyway.

Should I drink another Yakult? I hope I don't get a tummy ache. :/

Drown in my Sorrows

2010-09-12T01:13:00.001+08:00

Another photooooo I really like cats. I want a pet caaaaaaat

2010-09-10T02:48:00.002+08:00

I found this new thing, that lets me edit photos, like photoshop, but it's online and freeeeee :) Look at that! Pretty right! Though maybe I shouldn't have put the frame.

Nostalgia and Dreams

2010-09-07T23:54:00.003+08:00

This morning, I woke up and I didn't want to wake up. Staying in bed made me feel safe, like there was a barrier, and all the problems and troubles couldn't get me as long as I stayed in bed.

Today was, quite a nostalgic day I must say.

Spend the whole day in the clementi/west coast area, and it really reminded me of the nanhua days. Haha! Ate lunch at sumo house, then went to West Coast Plaza to study. It was previously known as Ginza Plaza right? I hope I didn't rmb wrongly. Yea walked arnd for awhile, then settled at Coffee Bean cause Starbucks was kinda full. Damn Coffee Bean totally sucked my money, I will never buy a drink there again. I'd rather drink from the tap. Haha! Me and Loh were freezing our asses off. We even went out to sit in the sun. Yes, sit. We sat against a pillar. I always wanted to do that. Hahahahaha

After quite awhile we gave up, and went to study outside. The cold was honestly VERY distracting. I couldn't really concentrate, cause I was thinking too much about how cold I was. Studying outside was much better.

I've been having weird dreams lately. Like really weird dreams. One had me trying to kill a cockroach with a whip. (?!?) No matter how hard I tried I couldn't hit the cockroach, I was quite annoyed. Haha!

Another had my mother bringing kittens home to ask me what colour I want, so we can get 2 after my A's. So coool how I wish it came true. To my dad who may read this, HINT HINT! :D

Another had me fighting with some crazy gunman in a room, in which he shot everybody, including me in the stomach and thigh but it didn't hurt at all. Then I also shot someone mistakenly, cause I though I was aiming at the guy's head. Then I hit the gunman with the gun, but it annoyingly was just like a plastic toy gun, and yes, it was preeeetty useless. I forgot how it ended, I just woke up. I was quite scared in that dream, but now that I think about it it's really stupid.

OH and I dreamed that me, liling and weiwei and some other person were watching YOG in some school. All the events were being held in the parade square (?!) and we were watching basketball girls. Then I suddenly went to take the bus somewhere, and the bus driver suddenly said he will drive me to where I was heading to. Like right to the place, ignoring the bus stops. But there were other passengers!! HAHA! My dreams are really weird.

And it seems like I have about 2 dreams every night, and I always really rmb only one. It all mashes up, so I cant really differentiate when did I dream what.

But every time I dream, there was one thing in common.

2010-09-07T00:33:00.001+08:00

"Hello, yeah, it's been a while.
Not much, how 'bout you?
I'm not sure why I called,
I guess I really just wanted to talk to you.
And I was thinking maybe later on,
We could get together for a while.
It's been such a long time,
And I really do miss your smile."

2010-09-06T23:41:00.003+08:00

One day, I'm going to take the camera, and go all over the place.

And I'll take photos of everything.

Anything, really.

Will you go with me?

That way, I'll be able to take photos of you too.

Gotcha!

2010-09-04T23:30:00.003+08:00

Today, I took the bus. There was a guy, before getting off the top deck, decided to puke at the stairs. Yep. I was quite shocked. AND he had to puke EVERYTHING out, before leaving the bus. He even spat his saliva there. I don't blame him for puking, but honestly, he could try to puke as little as he can, and run out of the bus right? I mean... Yea. I don't know. Maybe he really couldn't. Ah well. People were like acrobats, skipping steps and jumping and all. Haha

I was. Hmm. Kind of tired today? Not tired, but my eyes were half-closed most of the day. I wasn't sleepy, but I didn't feel like moving around. I had a little little headache in the morning, and I wasn't sure if it was cause of my earphones. Maybe I turned the music on too loud? I'm trying to turn down the volume a little, cause I think my hearing's getting really bad. :/ I don't want to be deaf when I'm old. D:

I'm addicted to the song Just The Way You Are by Bruno Mars. And lots of other oldies. :D I really love oldies, and I'm really glad my parents played it in the car all the time when I was young. Now not so much, I'm not even in the car very often. But still, I love listening to oldies, they never get old. Like, I never get tired of hearing them, like I get tired of the songs now. The songs last time were so simple, but they were sweeter than most songs now.

I am an Immortal Housefly.

2010-09-01T00:36:00.002+08:00

I only had a subway cookie for dinner :(

Nah I'm not whining. I wasn't hungry anyway.

Studying tmr, as usual.

I wonder how long can I last, before I wear out my will and just give up on everything.

Hold On - Michael Buble

2010-08-31T01:13:00.000+08:00

Didn't they always say we were the lucky ones?
I guess that we were once
Babe, we were once

But luck will leave you cause
It is a faithless friend
And in the end when life has got you down
You've got someone here that you can wrap your arms around

So hold on to me tight
Hold on to me tonight
We are stronger here together
Than we could ever be alone
So hold on to me
Don't you ever let me go

There's a thousand ways for things to fall apart
But it's no one's fault
No it's not my fault

Maybe all the plans we made would not work out
But I have no doubt even though it's hard to see
I've got faith in us and I believe in you and me

So hold on to me tight
Hold on, I promise it'll be alright
Cause it's you and me together
And baby all we've got is time
So hold on to me, hold on to me tonight

There's so many dreams that we have given up
Take a look at all we've got
And with this kind of love
What we've got here is enough

So hold on to me tight
Hold on, I promise it'll be alright
Cause we are stronger here together
Then we could ever be alone
Just hold on to me
Don't you ever let me go
Hold on to me, it's gonna be alright
Hold on to me tonight
They always say we were the lucky ones

Flashing By

2010-08-29T22:24:00.002+08:00

Time is really going sooo fast. It's been a week since I used my com. This is good, I used to be so addicted. I have no idea why either. I guess it really is not that hard to kick an addiction.

These few days I've been really silly. Ok not few days, just this weekend.

SATURDAY

1. On the bus home with liling

liling (sms): OMG susu can you help me check if I left my phone on the bus?
me: *frantically looks*
...

2. At home

me (to my mum and dad): I tell you! Ytd, my GP teacher said I made a really great improvement in my GP essay, and he ask the class to clap for me! QUICK, praise meeee!
mum: What essay is that? Econs essay?
dad: Huh?
me: NOOOOO GP ESSAYYYY you never listen to meeee :(
mum: aiya sorry lah I never hear. Yes, good job!
me: YAYYYY daddy quick, praise me praise me!
dad: I don't know what is happening.

Then I burst out laughing.

3. At home

me: I eat a lot today I very full. :(
mum: ya that's why I say faster finish your sushi and drink your tea and go and bathe, then you can go and sleep early!
me: My backside pain.
mum: *turns back to her korean drama*

Shows how much concern they have for my pain and suffering. Haha!

SUNDAY

Ok not much happened today. I just mispronounced A LOT of words.

Nails became Tails.
Passenger seat became Passenger Shit.

In addition, I've been limping around these 2 days, because of all my muscle aches. I think I did too much reverse on friday, and overstretched or something. I look like an old womannnn >:(

Shows how much I need to exercise, or how much I HAVEN'T been exercising. Doesn't help that I got called FAT over a million times on saturday. Lol silly.

Resting tonight, having some fun reading emails and stuff. I've got to do econs later, before I go to sleep. I shall try not to be so lost in econs anymore.

Where did the bus stop go!

2010-08-15T23:30:00.002+08:00

KISS ME, HONEY, HONEY, KISS ME
(Written by Albon Timothy / Michael Julien)
Shirley Bassey - 1959

Kiss me, honey, honey, kiss me
Thrill me, honey, honey, thrill me
Don't care even if I blow my top
But, honey, honey, don't stop
I'd like to play a little game with you
A little game especially made for two
If you come close then I will show you how
Closer, closer, now

Kiss me, honey, honey, kiss me
Thrill me, honey, honey, thrill me
Don't care even if I blow my top
But, honey, honey, don't stop

We've never played this little game before
If you relax then you'll enjoy it more
Just settle down and let me teach you how
Closer, closer, now

Kiss me, honey, honey, kiss me
Thrill me, honey, honey, thrill me
Don't care even if I blow my top
But, honey, honey, don't stop
(But, honey, honey, don't stop)

You kiss so well my lips begin to burn
And I can tell I've got a lot to learn
So hold me close and darling show me how
Closer, closer, now

Kiss me, honey, honey, kiss me
Thrill me, honey, honey, thrill me
Don't care even if I blow my top
But, honey, honey, don't stop
(Don't care even if I blow my top)
But, honey, honey, don't stop
(Never stop)

Less than 5 minutes

2010-08-13T00:01:00.003+08:00

HELLO I haven't posted in ages, but I'm not gonna post much. No time no time NEED TO SLEEP.

The days have started to blur together, and it's the same monotonous things everyday: STUDY STUDY STUDY. :(

Yea, I've just summarised my life in one word. Even though I have fun, that's like, the details, elaboration, stating it would just not be summarising anymore. LOL

Ok SLEEP SLEEP I have to give a wake up call tmr

This Love - Angela Aki

2010-08-08T02:28:00.002+08:00

愛があれば平和だと
誰かが口にしていた
うなずく人もいれば
疑う人もいる

苦しみがあるからこそ
あなたを抱きしめる時
その腕の優しさを
平和と感じるんでしょう

ある時から無口になり
心を締め切り
この恋が引き裂かれそうになった

重ねたこの手を
今度は放さない
信じる力が
愛を自由にする

友情に救われたり
未来を想像したり
幸せは見えるけど
自分を見ることはない

約束という私たちのコンパスだけでは
この恋は方角を見失うの

奇跡を待つより
この手をつなぎたい
信じる力が
私を自由にする

この恋を恐れずに
You don´t have to fear this love
This love

重ねたこの手を
今度は放さない
信じる力が
愛を自由にする

奇跡を待つより
この手をつなぎたい
信じる力が
私を自由にす

Someone has said that
If there is love there is peace
And while there is people that agrees
There is also people that doubts about it

Because there is suffering
When I hug you close
In the gentleness of those arms
I feel peace

From certain moment I became reticent
And shut my heart
This love seems to have been torn apart

I put this hand over yours
And this time I won't let it go
The power of believing
Will set love free

Being rescued by friendship
And Imagining our future
I can see happiness
But I can't see myself

Just with the promise that we call our compass
This love will lose sight of direction

Rather than waiting for a miracle
I want to connect these hands
The power of believing will
Will set me free

You don't have to fear this love
You don't have to fear this love
This love

I put this hand over yours
And this time I won't let it go
The power of believing
Will set love free

Rather than waiting for a miracle
I want to connect these hands
The power of believing will
Will set me free

Fast forward

2010-08-02T01:08:00.002+08:00

I wish I could travel to a place where what I dream of becomes a reality.

Good luck to those with more lung power.

2010-07-26T22:34:00.002+08:00

NEWS NEWS HEAR YE' HEAR YE'. Lol OK it's nothing. Just that we, hoki girls, have been disqualified from the race.

I can almost hear all of you going WHAAAAT?!??!?!?!?!

Mrs Wee didn't even say sorry for not informing us that we were disqualified. I'm just wondering, if they didn't disqualify us last friday during the heats, then we're in what. No matter what anyone says after that, it doesn't count anymore. Like in soccer, if the referee doesn't blow the whistle, then he can't blow it half an hour later and call a foul right? Like in weddings, "speak now or forever hold your peace". You can't wait till everyone's celebrating and then you run up to the stage and say "I OBJECT". It's silly. Not disqualifying us then and there was your mistake, and bringing it up again is just picking on us and being anal! LOL OH WELLLLL just had to vent a little.

Sigh I don't really want to talk about why or what happened. Let's just say hoki girls met with really bad luck, yea? Hurrr but I was really looking forward to that race. It'll be the last sports day we'll ever have, and I wanted the last race to be that exciting. Guess we'll have to make do with the house race. But that's 8x100m! That's gonna take so long, I think it'll be kinda boring. :/

Ah at least there's the guy's one to look out for. :)

You can be as cold as the winter weather
but i don't care, as long as we're together.

After Summer comes Autumn

2010-07-25T01:51:00.004+08:00

Whoever told meeee that 500 Days of Summer was not nice, WAS LYING! >:(

I love the showwww it's so sweet. Tom's so sweeeeeet, the way he nvr stopped trying. The way he was SOOOOOO happy when he was with her! Like he couldn't stop smiling, and everything in the world was just Awesome. :) Summer is just, evil. Just, bad to Tom. :(

YEPYEP watched a nice show today, and I'm happy. :) I haven't watched a movie in ages, not even on my com. I'm glad I watch 500 Days of Summer! Totally worth the time. (^^)

Went to the library today! With Wan Ping, that microscopic thing. HEH but she was lateeee so late. I had to turn down a girl who wanted to sit at the table, and she looked so disappointed! And I felt so guilty cause I knew I wasn't suppose to reserve seats. :/

Anyway, we went down to eat prata after that. No wonder it's expensive, it's handmade. But it's still expensive, I'd rather eat at the market. The curry was good though! really tasty, kristel was drinking it like it was soup. D: Though I did the same after that... HEHE AND AND I didn't know, that they don't give tissue paper, or serviettes! YOU HAVE TO BUY PACKET TISSUE. THATS SUUUUUPER EVIL! Really! Evil!! It's psychotic...

Yea then we went back, after awhile shaz suddenly appeared and sat with us cause all the other tables were full. Then liling came, and we studied. Saw jingxuan and her bf and me and kristel had laughing fits. HAHAHAHA I think we were VERY annoying. (>_<)

Went to JP to eat dinner, cause I was hungry. It's not cause I'm fatfat ok!! Liling was hungry too, and she had just eaten! Tsk. Ate at Burger King, saw LOADS of ppl. HAHAHA including... HAHAHAHAH JOKE.

Got back to the library and saw... A PINK SLIP! HAHA I WAS SO HAPPY. I never got a pink slip before, and I realise it's damn retarded. It read:

Just a friendly reminder...

Then there were checkboxes on it, for the security guard to check the reason for her giving us a pink slip. We got checked for leaving our belongings unattended for more than 10 mins or something. She even wrote the time! D: Stalker! We wrote a thank you note on the back, but liling folded it into a heart, and proposed to me with it. (What the hell?!) HAHA yea she even gave me a supposedly "environmentally-friendly" ring. It had a STAPLER BULLET on it, how environmentally free could it be?!??!!

Nonetheless, since she made me a reaaaaally entertaining paper crane, I shall not bully her. The paper crane is really interesting! THE WINGS CAN FLAPPP LOL kristel said I look like some little girl, or something like that, cause the crane made me really happy. :(

OH the sports heats was on friday. My tummy was flipping for the wholeeee day I was so nervous :( But we did fine in the end :D Just that overall the touchruggers won us by 0.8 seconds. I WANT TO BEAT THEMMMMMM just cause they are SOOOO confident that they will win. I want them to eat their WORDSSSSSSSS HA.

Crap that means I must train a little harder? Just for now? And I need to ask my papa to fix the spike shoes haha the sole came out again. :/ I just hope on sports day, since I'm running 2 races, it wouldn't come out after the first one. If not I'll be in trouble! The tracks really slippery, you have no idea how many times I slipped and slided when I was playing hoki. And yes, the word "slided" was on purpose. Lol in case some of you think that I actually thought there's such a word.

For a split second, I actually questioned myself about the existence of that word. LOL

Today I woke up. Then I lay in my bed and texted kristel to see if she was awake. Then when I tried to get up, I realised my whole body was aching. I felt like I was paralysed :( Crappy feeling, I hope the aches go away tmr, if not I wouldn't be able to walk properly. Kristel said I walked like a duck. Damn.

Crimson Sunset

2010-07-22T01:06:00.002+08:00

I wonder, did ANYONE notice the sunset today?

I was making a trip to the loo, when I looked up and saw the sky. It was so amazing, with all the reddish and pinkish and orangey hues. (even though I hate pink) It was really pretty, made me feel warm and fuzzy. (^^)

I just realised: why do we say pinkish and reddish, but we don't say orangish, or orangeyish. And now I'm thinking of a colour that is as weird as orange. Nope, I can't. Aww man, this is going to stay with me all night. D:

Night study today was, pretty unproductive. I only did one MCQ paper for chem. It's not like I was very distracted or anything. I just spent a lot of time, cause I didn't know how to do sooooo many questions. I have yet to mark it. I shall mark it tmr, and go for consulatation. I wonder who's the teacher gonna be. Scary. What if I get scolded for my VERY limited chemistry knowledge? :(

Weiwei had her first driving lesson today, and it made me want to learn too! Sounds like great fun. I honestly think I'll be a good driver. HAHA oh well~

Study study study that's all that's on anyone's mind now.

The principal talked for over an hour today, and I wasn't listening AT ALL. HAHA she's so weird. :/

OK I'm tired. I want to finish my GP and go to bed. I'm only doing GP cause its compre questions and I like to do compre questions. (^^)

You can be the butterflies I feel in my belly~

Talk.

2010-07-19T21:56:00.004+08:00

“I guess you are right. I’m afraid. I am afraid to put my guard down. I am afraid that if you know all that I am, you won’t feel the same. And I’m afraid that once my barrier is defeated, and I’m comfortable, that you’ll walk away."

First time night studying today~ Finished my chem worksheet for my lecture, and did some other organic questions. I really suck at chem! My goodness :(

I shall stay for night study everyday. It's much more effective, I can't study at home. Too many distractions!

I've still got GP to do, sadly. I like GP, but I really hate doing the homework. It's pretty useless, I never look back anyway. My GP stuff are the most messy, they fly everywhere haha!

AND HOORAYYYY I'm probably gonna change my phone plan and my phone this thurs. I don't really care about the phone, I want a new phone plan!! :D Finally. My phone plan is really crappy.

Should I let this go on? I don't know. I already know what I really want to do, but everyone seems to be advicing me against it. I just need one person to agree with me, and tell me it's ok to want to do this, and I'm all set. I don't know what will happen, and I guess it will never end well, but I want to trust myself. At least then, I won't regret. I won't regret not following my heart, and not knowing what would have happened. Even if it ends badly, at least it's an end right?

Enough

2010-07-18T23:58:00.002+08:00

OK I just realised how much I've been whining to everyone. :( It's so not like me. I shall stop whining, and get back on my feet now.

Thank you guys for being there (^^)

Cry with the Sky

2010-07-18T22:05:00.000+08:00

Rained so much today. Maybe not a lot, but it drizzled for a long time.

I would know.

Cause I walked home from Taman Jurong's McDonald's.

Why?

I don't know.

I wrote a whole paragraph of what I felt, and everything that is going on in my mind, but I think I'll keep it to myself. Even though, if you knew, you would understand.

IMY

2010-07-18T21:42:00.003+08:00

Forever - Rascal Flatts

I miss you so much
your light your smile your wave
and everything about us
but your gone your still here
in my heart and my tears

Yeah you sure left your mark
we were just gettin’ started

It wasn’t long enough
it wasn’t long enough together
but it was long enough
yeah it was long enough
to last forever

sometimes i get so mad
i scream, i swear at this
cause this isn’t how we planned it
i sit here in a cold moon
prayin, waitin’ on you

to run back though that door
to the way it was before you left

it wasn’t long enough
it wasn’t long enough together
but it was long enough
yeah, it was long enough to last forever

I’ve been cheated, defeated cant believe that your gone

it wasn’t long
it wasn’t long enough
it wasn’t long enough
it wasn’t long enough

no no no

it wasn’t long enough
it wasn’t long enough together
but it was long enough
yeah it was long enough
to last to last to last forever

no, it wasn’t long enough

Damn I really love Rascal Flatts.

Broken.

2010-07-14T23:05:00.001+08:00

痛い。

I know what I want.

2010-07-13T18:04:00.003+08:00

Got back phy and GP. To my relief, I didn't fail.

I'll definitely fail chem, so I'm hoping econs will be fine. But apparently, everyone did badly at econs. :/

I was just thinking, would you prefer to be wanted, or needed? I mean, normally there are stories that have the guy saying stuff like 'I don't want to be with you, I need to be with you.' If you REALLY think about it, being needed, doesn't mean the person wants you around right? It's like vegetables. They're so disgusting, no one would want them. But you need to eat them, cause you body needs the vitamins and what not.

But look at stuff like chocolates and sweets, you want them, even though you know you're not suppose to be eating too much of it, but you still want it nonetheless cause it makes you happy, and it really is worth all the illness you could get.

So, I'd rather someone tell me, 'I want you'.

I want something that's extinct.

2010-07-12T22:55:00.004+08:00

School was depressing, as usual. Shall not talk much about that.

Went to study after school in the library, for about an hour. Then I went home. Alone.

Met my mama at JP, bought dinner and breakfast.

I came home and I honestly just mulled about. I just didn't really feel like I had a lot of energy left in me. All the excitement and anticipation I had in the morning was gone, destroyed by a small moment. And I'm not talking about math.

Took the book my brother was reading. This amazingly thick book, that is so thick that I could use it as a pillow. I am not exaggerating. I really put my head on it, and it was PERFECT. Fell asleep, duh!

I think I am a sleeping god, I slept on the floor last night, wrapped in my blanket and hugging my sheep. Somehow it felt nice.

Sigh did absolutely NOTHING for the rest of the night. Which is bad. At least I managed to complete my homework for tmr at the library. That's one good thing I guess.

I feel like watching a sappy movie, but that wouldn't be good. Though I feel really sappy. Really moody these daysssss :(

Did you know...

2010-07-12T20:38:00.004+08:00

Starfish have eyes.

While they can't see as well as we do, sea stars have an eye spot at the end of each arm. This is a very simple eye that looks like a red spot. The eye doesn't see much detail, but can sense light and dark.

Starfish do not have blood.

Instead of blood, sea stars have a water vascular system, in which the sea star pumps sea water through its sieve plate, or madreporite, into its tube feet to extend them. Muscles within the tube feet retract them.

The water vascular system uses cilia and the constantly contracting ampullae to keep things moving. An ionic imbalance causes water to flow into the madreporite, entering the water vascular system. Some of this water is diverted into the periviscerial coelom (the large cavity in which major organs are suspended), where it is circulated by the beating of cilia. Most oxygen enters the starfish via diffusion into the tube feet (with the water vascular system), or the papulae (small sacs covering the upper body surface.

Starfish can regenerate a lost arm.

Amazingly, sea stars can regenerate lost arms. This is useful if the sea star is threatened by a predator - it can drop an arm and get away. Sea stars house most of their vital organs in their arms, so some can even regenerate an entirely new sea star from just one arm and a portion of the star's central disc. It won't happen too quickly, though. It takes about a year for an arm to grow back.

Starfish do not have a heart.

The reason they do not have a heart is because they don't have blood to pump around their body.

Starfish do not have a brain.

A starfish doesn't have a brain in its head like we do. Instead their entire nervous system acts like a distributed brain. So, it has a brain, just not like ours

Sounds so sad, not to have a heart. Not having a brain is bad enough. But it has other stuff to help it feel, so I guess it's as much a living thing as any of us. :)

I suddenly like starfish a whole lot more.

Suffocation

2010-07-10T23:37:00.002+08:00

I feel so retarded I just found out that kiwis and wallabies are NOT extinct? I have no idea why I thought they were, but I thought they were.

I just realised, I think I confused kiwis with the tasmanian devil. And the supposed wallaby extinction was due to some confusion in primary school.

It's amazing how I took so many years to actually find out and sort out my confusion.

Which reminds me, that time me and weiwei were arguing about something, and I said I would check it out, but now I can't rmb what it was. Shit this is gonna stay with me all night.

My granmama's homeeee! :D She fell last tuesday, and when my parents brought her to the hospital the day before (thursday) and then the doctor said she had a crack in her pelvis bone and had to stay in the hospital. Scary, I know. No wonder she couldn't walk before. But the doctor says she'll be fine in about a month, with plenty of rest. :) She has to walk with this walker thing now, not her walking stick. I think this walker is better anyway.

Today we went for lunch after going to baibai at the temple for my granpapa's death anniversary. My granmama had a really hard time just walking to the seat :( Everyone was trying to help, but honestly, "too many cooks spoil the soup". Get it? Yea. It was quite chaotic. Sometimes adults get so caught up in their own actions that they don't stop and listen.

I was thinking of going to work at the stables after A's or something. That'll be pretty cool. (^^)

Despicable MEEEEEE

2010-07-09T22:35:00.002+08:00

If she's worth it, you won't give up.

Watched despicable me todayyy (I shall skip school cause it was SERIOUSLY boring >:[ )

Awww such a heartwarming show. So cute. ITS SO FLUFFFYYYYYYYYY hahahahahah!

Post-exam's a total waste of time.

2010-07-08T20:47:00.002+08:00

Yes, it is.

rrrr <-- my crazy sister wrote this.

LOL wow my last day of slacking. I've to start studying tmrrrr I'll stay in school to study I guess.

Alone? Maybe? Haha it's better alone isn't it? I'm too lazy to play hockey. But I shall just bring a shirt. I've got PE anyway. OHHH crap I realise I've got pe. I don't want to have pe D:

Enjoy while we can

2010-07-07T23:10:00.002+08:00

WOW I didn't know that prawning was THAT fun! LOL I want to go prawning sooooon. Again. But that will most probably be after A's. :( I realise, I think I don't understand the gravity of the situation I'm in. Maybe I need to sit down and give it a little more thought. :/

Nonetheless, I'm quite good at prawning, not to show off or anything. :D HAHA But it's really fun, everyone should try it! And I would really get addicted to it, if it wasn't so far and didn't cost so much. 25 bucks for 2 hours, wow. That's half my pocket money! At least today we shared among the 3 of us, so it wasn't that bad. But still!

Then went to orchard. Failed at watching a movie. LOL ended up just buying food and walking around. Ate dinner, laughed at weiwei all the way, and then went home. Looked at bags and shoes etc; I DO NOT HAVE WEIRD TASTE! I don't mind being abnormal anyway. The rest of you can go be normal, like everyone else, and I will be the SPECIAL one. (^-^)

Saw a preeeeetty long skirt, but it was 50 bucks, and not all the perfect after we tried it on. Still preeeetty though~

Back to hell tmr :(

Stinging Memories

2010-07-07T01:37:00.002+08:00

Finished Dear John!

Ok, there wasn't any sobfest, but still. :) Nice showwww and there was a good ending. I thought that the ending was that they didn't end up together. And honestly, I was dreading the ending. But when I saw them hug, and the credits came out, it made me smile.

All guys should be like John. Hmm actually no, if they were all like John, no guy would be special anymore. A guy can be a girl's 'John', but he won't be the same 'John' to another girl. HMM I wonder who actually understands my blabbering. Only an alien would be able to. Please tell me if you do, I would be most happy to meet your aquaintence, my dear alien friend.

Wanted to watch If Only, but decided against it. I better not oversleep tmr haha! I still haven't gone to look for clothes! D:

"Tell me everything. Write it all down, John. Scribble it in a notebook. Type it out, e-mail it to me. I don't care, but I want to know everything.

Then we'll be with each other all the time, even if we're not with each other.

That way before we know it, I'll see you soon, then."

- Dear John

I'm not sure if you know, but I really miss you.

I waaaaant, you, to want me.

2010-07-06T21:14:00.002+08:00

I just finished fullmetal-

IT WAS AWESOMEEEEEEEEEE

HAHA! Wahh fullmetal really is an awesome anime. I wouldn't mind watching it all over again! PLUS there was a good ending, so that part is good too.

Edward: It's Equivalent Exchange!
Winry: Huh?
Edward: I'll give you half of my life, so you give me half of yours!
-Pause-
Winry: *SIGH* Why are all Alchemists like this? Saying stuff like "Law of Equivalent Exchange", how stupid can you get?!
Edward: What did you say?!
Winry: You're a real idiot. You want half? I'll give you all of it.

HAHAHAHA THEN SHE REALISED WHAT SHE JUST SAID. LOL

Edward and Winry are soooooo cute. (><)

「君はひとりで平気だから…ね」と押し付けてさよなら
その類の気休めなら聞き飽きた筈なのに

Freedom - for now :)

2010-07-06T19:26:00.002+08:00

YAY MID-YEARS ARE OVER! :D

I shall not study for today. And tmr. I want to go out! And slack and waste time. And wear nice clothes :)

edit; WOW prawning tmr with weiwei and huang jj! My first time prawning! I bet I'll be really super duper good at it.

I shall finish fullmetal today, and maybe I'll watch dear john, or some of the other movies I have. I forsee a sobfest on the way.

It fits my current mood anyway, and who knows, maybe crying will do me some good.

OH and I cut my hair, no more long fringe D: and I'm really not used to it. Nvm, I can always grow it back (^^)

Long walks and sing-a-longs

2010-07-05T21:47:00.003+08:00

Saying sorry doesn’t mean anything. It’s how you treat the person after it.

Oh so true.

Today, I was so lost in my thoughts, that I realised I had to gasp for air. Maybe I just forgot to breathe.

Anyway, went to macs with kristel and weiwei today to study. Uh oh, ate mac breakfast, then ate kfc. Ate macs ytd, and sat too. Am I trying to drown myself in unhealthiness? I have no idea.

Maybe one day, I'll get tired of trying, and I'll just let myself get fat and ugly. :/

Last paper tmr, and honestly after 3 straight days of chem, I still don't think I'll do well tmr. I wonder if it's cause I didn't study the right way, or if I didn't study enough. But I've never studied so hard for chem before, and I'm even starting to like it. At least it occupies my thoughts.

Guess I should get to reading some final stuff, just to make sure they stay in my memory and I'll be able to do SOMETHING tmr. I need to read organic chem.

Lost

2010-07-04T02:49:00.003+08:00

Wow lots to say today.

Woke up, ate my soggy prata (cause I woke up too late :/) then went off to mac at taman jurong to study. I think I will study there from now on. It's nice there; not too noisy that I can't study, but not too quiet till I doze, like at the library. I realise, when I study I must have just that little bit of distraction. If not I'll just sink into the depths of sleep. HAHA

Yep saw weird ppl at the library. This auntie that was in the toilet for AGES. This guy that came to macs JUST to use the internet? I DON'T KNOW?! Like, he just sat there using his com, and he didn't buy anything. AND he came back later in the evening AGAIN! And then there was this guy, that came in, sat at a table and just talked on his phone. Didn't eat, or wasn't waiting for anyone. Just to talk on the phone. Then after awhile he left? Maybe he came just to enjoy the aircon, but seriously. They can't get any cheaper. (-_-|||)

Mumsy, popsy and ZG came to find me to eat dinner. Zg swept in like... ugh. (shivers) Ate dinner, got lectured about drinking coke, got lectured about putting my phone on the table (?!?), mumsy acted like a little kid and asked NICELY for mcwings.

When they left, there was this, FRENZY for chairs? Probably cause of the Germany-Argentina match at 10. BUT IT WAS 8. And people were already starting to reserve seats, drag chairs to open spaces and totally obstruct EVERYTHING. Come on, they congregate at the table with the sauce dispenser etc. Honestly! Then at about 9, people were really RACING to get chairs? Like the banglas, ok not only them, were desperately looking for chairs? Poor macdonald worker, he had to stop people from taking chairs. Like, when he was explaining to one bangla why he can't take the chair (he has to wrestle it from the guy), another 2 or 3 other people will be snatching other chairs elsewhere. It was quite chaotic. But you can't blame the poor boy, almost ALL the tables were chairless? How are they gonna do business like that! Not as if the people watching buy meals and watch or anything. Most of them just SIT there, NOT buy anything, and watch. Then the manager was rushing around too, trying to settle the chair crisis.

Seriously, it's good to like soccer, but can't they be more civilised?! If they're not buying anything, and there aren't enough chairs, then jolly-well stand! TSK! I was quite annoyed. And quite pressured, cause they kept looking at me and my chair. (>n<) Since I wasn't exactly eating anything (just a cup of tea), I hurriedly finished and left. Block the door some more! >:(

ANYWAY...

On the way home, this auntie just cut my path with her stupid market trolley thing. Tsk! I hate it when I'm walking, and some bobo comes along and cuts me off. Then I have to jam break. THEN, even worse, her walking speed was so weird. I had to either walk REALLY fast in order overtake her, or walk REALLY slow to walk behind her. I HATE IT! I HATE IT I HATE IT! LOL that was funny. Ya but I really detest that. It's annoying!

Back to my point, the weather was REALLY cooling! Best weather in a long time! So cooling that I quickly walked home, got changed and went downstairs to jog. Fatfat has to exercise more. :/

BUUUUT I forgot about the thing where I have to wait HOURS before I run after I eat. Soo...

Eat at 7 + Run at 10= PUKEEEEEEE

HAHAHAHAHA yea, I puked. Guess I need more than 4 hours? LOL I was walking around, at the lift landing outside my house, thinking if I was gonna puke. Then I wanted to go to the toilet, cause I felt the puke was almost gonna come up, and I was gonna gag soon. BUT MY GRANMAMA WAS IN THE TOILET. D: I was so... Hmm. Can't think of the word. Yea, didn't want to use my parent's toilet, in case my puke was, you know, kinda smelly? (>u<) So I walked to the common dustbin, you know, all HDB flats have this, dustbin chute? Yea. I walked there, walked back to my house to ask my brother if it was ok for me to puke there, then walked back and puked. God knows why I wanted to ask my brother for permission. But I must say, I have very good control over my puke. HAHA

I just washed it off after that and went home. I could see some fries, I think they were fry pieces? OK TMI HAHAHAHA

Slacked, then studied A LITTLE (like 10 mins) then watched an episode of F.R.I.E.N.D.S and here we are. :) Still contemplating if I should continue studying or if I should go sleep. I mean, I'm definitely gonna wake up after 10 or 11 tmr, which would waste my whole morning, so I might as well study for awhile more, so I dont waste so much time right?

YA AND I JUST REALISED, BLOGGING TOOK UP QUITE SOME TIME. HAHAHAHA idiot (^-^)

Pitter Patter~

2010-07-02T15:56:00.002+08:00

I want to go out and study,
but the rain's keeping me in.
And surprisingly,
I can't figure out how to waste my time properly. :/

I want to see you Now.

Someone To Fall Back On

2010-07-02T14:56:00.003+08:00

if a boy really likes you, he doesn’t care how tired he is, how much homework he has or how late it is. he’ll talk to you. ”

-idareyoutoclickthis.tumblr.com

Watched Bandslam, cause I needed something that was silly and simple. I like the songs :)

Had econs today, was so-so. Now to study for chem. Got to study hard! Last paper, and i seriously screwed every other one up. :/

I'll never be
A knight in armor
With a sword in hand,
Or a kamikaze fighter;
Don't count on me
To storm the barricades
And take a stand,
Or hold my ground;
You'll never see
Any scars or wounds -
I don't walk on coals,
I won't walk on water:
I am no prince,
I am no saint,
I am not anyones wildest dream,
But I will stand behind
And be someone to fall back on.

Some comedy -
You're bruised and beaten down
And I'm the one
Who's looking for a favor.
Still, honestly,
You don't believe me
But the things I have
Are the things you need.
You look at me
Like I don't make sense,
Like a waste of time,
Like it serves no purpose -
I am no prince,
I am no saint,
And if thats what you believe you need,
You're wrong - you dont need much,
You need someone to fall back on...

And I'll be that:
I'll take your side.
If I'm the only one,
I'm used to that.
I've been alone,
I'd rather be
The half of us,
The least of you,
The best of me.
And I will be
I'll be Your prince,
I'll be your saint,
I will go crashing through fences
In your name. I will, I swear -
I'll be someone to fall back on!
I'll be the one who waits,
And for as long as you'll let me,
I will be the one you need.
I'll be someone to fall back on
I'll be someone to fall back on
One to fall back on

Studying... NOT!

2010-07-01T21:20:00.000+08:00

You make me dance like a fool
Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold, buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild
Ohh, you make me smile

I love this soooooong. :)

Pain

2010-07-01T02:46:00.003+08:00

When you truly love someone, every time spent with the other will always be perfect no matter how simple it may seem. Movies at home while sitting at the couch and a little chit chat is a classic but always works for me. There are many ways to be romantic and show someone you care, and it doesn’t have to take a lot of time or money. Even if you’re busy, a simple phone call, quick email or short note can say more than you think. It says, you mean a lot to me and I just wanted to let you know I was thinking of you.

- Kristian Carl

It isn't a quote or anything. It's just an answer to his follower's question.

I've decided I'm gonna get tumblr, cause I'm oh-so-addicted to those quotes and photos :)

Just wait till I decide what url to put. I wanna make a cool one!

Math tmr, lucky it's at 2 so I've still got some time to look through questions in the morning. I have to score for statistics, and try to score for this paper, cause I seriously doubt the amazingness of my P1. Not that I think tmr's paper's gonna be much more amazing.